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The neon sign of the "Ultima Statie" bar flickered, casting a rhythmic, sickly pink glow over Stefan’s hands. He wasn't a drinker by habit, but tonight, the habit of being himself had become too heavy to wear.

It wasn't a wish for an end to life, not really. It was a wish for the end of the feeling . He wanted to be like the glass—shattered, inert, unable to feel the cold or the heat. He wanted to go to sleep and wake up as someone else, or perhaps not wake up at all until the world had moved on and her name no longer felt like a hook in his throat. as_vrea_sa_beau_sa_plang_sa_mor

He stared into the amber glass. The liquid was sharp, smelling of scorched earth and forgotten promises. he whispered to the rim of the glass. The neon sign of the "Ultima Statie" bar

By the third glass, the world softened at the edges. The bar noise—the clinking of glasses, the low drone of a late-night news broadcast—began to feel like a blanket. But the numbness didn't bring peace; it brought the truth. It was a wish for the end of the feeling

He had spent weeks being "strong." He had been the man who cleaned the apartment, who went to work, who told friends he was "hanging in there." But as the alcohol dissolved his armor, the first tear escaped. It was hot and traitorous. Then came another.

The first sip burned, but it was a localized pain—a welcome distraction from the hollow ache in his chest. He wanted to drink until the memories of her laughter stopped sounding like music and started sounding like static. He wanted to drown the image of the hallway where she had said "I can't do this anymore," leaving a silence so loud it felt like a physical weight.

Stefan walked toward the bridge. He stood over the dark water, watching the city lights dance on the surface. He stayed there for a long time, letting the "dying" happen inside—the death of his old hopes, the death of his expectations.